Breaking Down

I’m breaking down,

I’m falling

But if you look inside of me

My soul is always bawling

Both my feet are planted

Firmly on the floor

But my heart can’t seem to deal

With this pain much more

I go through life pretending

That I am really tough

But inside I will always know

This road I’m on is rough

Everyone expects me to keep faith

And always to be strong

But this road I’m on is getting hard

And it seems forever long

I really want to make myself believe

That soon this all will end

And then my pain will go away

And I will truly begin to mend

I just want someone to comfort me

To take hold of my hand

And lead me through this dark place

That is full of all this sand

How can my feet be firmly planted

Underneath me on the ground

When I feel so lost and alone

Like I’m just spinning around?

How can I begin to deal

With all of my heart’s breaking

And continue along my life

While all I’m doing is faking?

I know this path I’m on

May not affect you today

But when you really think of it

You will really start to say

“That girl is really tough

And that girl is strong

But how do you think

She is getting along?”

When that day approaches

And is a reality for me

I will start to tell them all

To really look and see

That God has always been the one

Who began to clear the way

So that I could go on living

And fight for another day

They will never understand

Or really truly know

What I feel down deep inside

When the wind begins to blow

God is there to be my guide

And always stand beside me

To let me know he’s in my life

And that soon I will be free

Life is really good

But life is also rough

Good things can only come

To those who are truly tough

They must always go on living

And keep their head held high

Knowing that one day they will be His Angel

Looking down on the world from the sky

© August 8, 2010, Tawny Marie